Burdette you were born at 4 o clock in the morning of May 21!! It had been a rough night. I didn't feel great and I wasn't sleeping super well. But I thought I would make it at least 3 more days to when you were scheduled to come out. I was 36 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I woke about 2 and had to go to the bathroom. I was having a hard time falling back to sleep because I was in the hospital and alot seemed to be going on out in the hospital. I started to dose around 3 and was startled awake by blood. I called the nurse in and she ran out to get so more people. Doctor Farringer had given orders that if I was to bleed they were to call him directly and he was going to take care of the surgery and all the details of getting you here. I remember each time after seeing blood I would go into shock. I was shaking uncontrollably and I couldn't stop. A lot was happening. I called your dad and all I said was "You need to get down here" he hung up and I waited at the hospital for him to arrive for the Doctor to arrive and to get this show on the road. While we were waiting they put the monitor on you. You were happy as a lark. You had no idea what was going on. That was a blessing because I was so happy to know you were ok. I always worried about you. Shortly after everyone was running around getting things ready to go Your dad showed up he was able to give me a quick blessing and shortly after he showed up the doctor came and the anesthesiologist. They wheeled me out to the operating room and as I was leaving your dad said Love you. And then they took me away. They knocked me out and got you here about 4 in the morning all the bleeding had started about 3 in the morning. When I awoke I felt super out of it. I had lost a lot of blood. I got to hold you in my arms. I tried to nurse you and to get to know you but I felt so yucky I handed you back to your dad. Right after that I had horrible pains and felt massive clots coming out of my body, your dad was holding you watching a bag feel up with blood. Thank goodness for nurses. One of our favorite nurses Karin made a bold call to get my doctor back in and to kick the on call doctor out. My doctor made it back and I went once again to a different operating room. As I left your dad said again I love you. I went back under when I awoke I could see someone sitting in the corner watching me it was our Doctor. He waited until he knew I was going to make it back. I had lost a ton of blood. I needed 8 units of blood almost nine when it was all over. When I woke up the doctor came to me and told me what had happened and then went to talk with your dad. Your dad got special permission to come back and show me pictures and told me how you were doing. I was anxious to come meet you. I missed you. Finally they wheeled me back to our room and I was able to hold you in my arms. You were so tiny and perfect I was so happy you made it and so relieved that part was all over. You didn't want to nurse so we had to trick you lucky for us our nurse Karin helped us a lot with that and we were able to get you to figure it out. You caught on fast. I held you a lot. I held you all night long. One time you started to cry and I started to sing Too ra loo ra loo ra... And you instantly stopped crying and listened until you fell asleep it was a sweet moment I love you so much and will be catching up on this journal sorry it took me so long. I love you. You are a light in my world.
