Burdette you were born at 4 o clock in the morning of May 21!! It had been a rough night. I didn't feel great and I wasn't sleeping super well. But I thought I would make it at least 3 more days to when you were scheduled to come out. I was 36 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I woke about 2 and had to go to the bathroom. I was having a hard time falling back to sleep because I was in the hospital and alot seemed to be going on out in the hospital. I started to dose around 3 and was startled awake by blood. I called the nurse in and she ran out to get so more people. Doctor Farringer had given orders that if I was to bleed they were to call him directly and he was going to take care of the surgery and all the details of getting you here. I remember each time after seeing blood I would go into shock. I was shaking uncontrollably and I couldn't stop. A lot was happening. I called your dad and all I said was "You need to get down here" he hung up and I waited at the hospital for him to arrive for the Doctor to arrive and to get this show on the road. While we were waiting they put the monitor on you. You were happy as a lark. You had no idea what was going on. That was a blessing because I was so happy to know you were ok. I always worried about you. Shortly after everyone was running around getting things ready to go Your dad showed up he was able to give me a quick blessing and shortly after he showed up the doctor came and the anesthesiologist. They wheeled me out to the operating room and as I was leaving your dad said Love you. And then they took me away. They knocked me out and got you here about 4 in the morning all the bleeding had started about 3 in the morning. When I awoke I felt super out of it. I had lost a lot of blood. I got to hold you in my arms. I tried to nurse you and to get to know you but I felt so yucky I handed you back to your dad. Right after that I had horrible pains and felt massive clots coming out of my body, your dad was holding you watching a bag feel up with blood. Thank goodness for nurses. One of our favorite nurses Karin made a bold call to get my doctor back in and to kick the on call doctor out. My doctor made it back and I went once again to a different operating room. As I left your dad said again I love you. I went back under when I awoke I could see someone sitting in the corner watching me it was our Doctor. He waited until he knew I was going to make it back. I had lost a ton of blood. I needed 8 units of blood almost nine when it was all over. When I woke up the doctor came to me and told me what had happened and then went to talk with your dad. Your dad got special permission to come back and show me pictures and told me how you were doing. I was anxious to come meet you. I missed you. Finally they wheeled me back to our room and I was able to hold you in my arms. You were so tiny and perfect I was so happy you made it and so relieved that part was all over. You didn't want to nurse so we had to trick you lucky for us our nurse Karin helped us a lot with that and we were able to get you to figure it out. You caught on fast. I held you a lot. I held you all night long. One time you started to cry and I started to sing Too ra loo ra loo ra... And you instantly stopped crying and listened until you fell asleep it was a sweet moment I love you so much and will be catching up on this journal sorry it took me so long. I love you. You are a light in my world.
Wednesday, November 30, 2016
Wednesday, April 13, 2016
Bed Rest
So Burdette Jacob Reed. We have had quite a journey even from the beginning. Colette and Dustin had been praying for a little brother. Mom and Dad still weren't sure if we were ready to add more. We were praying to know what Heavenly Father wanted us to do, and when it would be time. One night before we were going to eat dinner Colette said a prayer and asked Heavenly Father for a baby brother. Dad looked at mom with a look that said did you tell her to say that. And Mom had not. So we figured it was time start on another adventure.
A month or so later I found out I was pregnant with you. We were super excited. We couldn't wait to tell Colette, Dustin, and Mabel. Well I started to feel pregnant. I was getting all sorts of symptoms. But at 5-6 weeks I started to bleed. I thought I was miscarrying. It would come and go. But I still felt sick I still had lots of the symptoms that I was pregnant. So from then to my appointment at 10 weeks I thought I didn't know what was going on. The night before I went to the appointment I asked Dad for a blessing. It was a very special blessing. I remember him saying that there was a spirit prepared to come to this body and that HE would be whole. I remember thinking is it really a boy! I was so happy that Colette and Dustin's many prayers for a boy had been answered. He blessed me with comfort that I may not know what is going on with my body but Heavenly Father knew. After the blessing I was still pretty worked up. I didn't know what all this meant. I asked Dad what he thought and he said I feel like this pregnancy is going to be a hard one. And I was having those same feelings. The next day we saw you wiggling like crazy on the ultrasound. You measured 5 days smaller so they changed me to 9 weeks and 2 days. And that the bleeding I was having was subchoronic hemorrhage. He said I needed to take it easy but that all would be fine. And it was. I stopped bleeding at 12 weeks, and didn't seem to have any more issues besides the normal symptoms.
I felt you for the first time at 17 weeks. It felt like little nudges, and it felt different from the other pregnancies. But I knew I could feel you. I was at the Dentist office when it happened. At 19 weeks I had my big ultrasound to check on you and to check and make sure everything looked good. And of course to see what you were. You were healthy and checked out great. You were pretty wiggly and kept your legs in a way we couldn't see what you were. But we finally got a look and found out you were in fact a boy. We were thrilled. The Doctor noticed that I on the other hand had an anterior placenta, and placenta previa. I remember your Aunt Kristal had this so I was pretty nervous. But Doctor Farringer didn't seem to be worried at this point so I thought I will take it one week at a time. We had a follow up ultrasound when I was 27 weeks. We still had previa and now I had to start taking it more easy. But he said I could still do what I was doing. So a week later we went camping, it was so fun. But I overdid it, and on Monday March 28 I didn't feel good all day, I didn't have an appetite. But I kept resting and pushing through. Grandpa and Thayne came over for dinner and Dustin and Colette were playing in the new fallen snow that day. Dad was smoking fish in the smoker and we were just getting things ready to eat. Well Dustin got in trouble and dad brought him in the house but I had to carry Dustin to time out so he could settle down. When I went to get him out I knew something was wrong. Down the Hall I yelled for Dad to bring the phone and come to the bathroom. He did and as soon as he saw all the blood he was calling the doctors office. They told us to come in to Labor and Delivery. So many blessings and miracles. I recieved a blessing and then we headed to the hospital. Our Doctor just happened to be the Doctor on call. So he came in checked out the bleeding and did an ultrasound. He said at this point I wasn't bleeding bad enough that he was ready to take you. But I was having contraction every 2-3 minutes, and he wanted to see if we could stop them and see if that would stop the bleeding. So we started that process. The bleeding and cramping slowed way down but I was still not all the way stopped. We spent from Monday night- Friday morning in the hospital. We were stable enough to go home on April Fools Day! We were nervous but relieved that were home. Each day has been a blessing. I feel you move often in my tummy. You are an active little guy. I love each movement I feel. Heavenly Father sent angels of every kind at this time and has been sending them everyday. The ward has been so helpful. We are blessed to be a part of something so great. I don't know what I would have done without everyone and their loving service. We already love you so much, and hope all is well inside. We hope you are growing strong and we hope to be able to make it father down the road. Yesterday was 31 weeks. So the end goal is 38 weeks June 1. But if we have problems at 36 weeks then he won't be stopping it. He will just get you out. So here is to hoping for June 1!!!!
WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!
A month or so later I found out I was pregnant with you. We were super excited. We couldn't wait to tell Colette, Dustin, and Mabel. Well I started to feel pregnant. I was getting all sorts of symptoms. But at 5-6 weeks I started to bleed. I thought I was miscarrying. It would come and go. But I still felt sick I still had lots of the symptoms that I was pregnant. So from then to my appointment at 10 weeks I thought I didn't know what was going on. The night before I went to the appointment I asked Dad for a blessing. It was a very special blessing. I remember him saying that there was a spirit prepared to come to this body and that HE would be whole. I remember thinking is it really a boy! I was so happy that Colette and Dustin's many prayers for a boy had been answered. He blessed me with comfort that I may not know what is going on with my body but Heavenly Father knew. After the blessing I was still pretty worked up. I didn't know what all this meant. I asked Dad what he thought and he said I feel like this pregnancy is going to be a hard one. And I was having those same feelings. The next day we saw you wiggling like crazy on the ultrasound. You measured 5 days smaller so they changed me to 9 weeks and 2 days. And that the bleeding I was having was subchoronic hemorrhage. He said I needed to take it easy but that all would be fine. And it was. I stopped bleeding at 12 weeks, and didn't seem to have any more issues besides the normal symptoms.
I felt you for the first time at 17 weeks. It felt like little nudges, and it felt different from the other pregnancies. But I knew I could feel you. I was at the Dentist office when it happened. At 19 weeks I had my big ultrasound to check on you and to check and make sure everything looked good. And of course to see what you were. You were healthy and checked out great. You were pretty wiggly and kept your legs in a way we couldn't see what you were. But we finally got a look and found out you were in fact a boy. We were thrilled. The Doctor noticed that I on the other hand had an anterior placenta, and placenta previa. I remember your Aunt Kristal had this so I was pretty nervous. But Doctor Farringer didn't seem to be worried at this point so I thought I will take it one week at a time. We had a follow up ultrasound when I was 27 weeks. We still had previa and now I had to start taking it more easy. But he said I could still do what I was doing. So a week later we went camping, it was so fun. But I overdid it, and on Monday March 28 I didn't feel good all day, I didn't have an appetite. But I kept resting and pushing through. Grandpa and Thayne came over for dinner and Dustin and Colette were playing in the new fallen snow that day. Dad was smoking fish in the smoker and we were just getting things ready to eat. Well Dustin got in trouble and dad brought him in the house but I had to carry Dustin to time out so he could settle down. When I went to get him out I knew something was wrong. Down the Hall I yelled for Dad to bring the phone and come to the bathroom. He did and as soon as he saw all the blood he was calling the doctors office. They told us to come in to Labor and Delivery. So many blessings and miracles. I recieved a blessing and then we headed to the hospital. Our Doctor just happened to be the Doctor on call. So he came in checked out the bleeding and did an ultrasound. He said at this point I wasn't bleeding bad enough that he was ready to take you. But I was having contraction every 2-3 minutes, and he wanted to see if we could stop them and see if that would stop the bleeding. So we started that process. The bleeding and cramping slowed way down but I was still not all the way stopped. We spent from Monday night- Friday morning in the hospital. We were stable enough to go home on April Fools Day! We were nervous but relieved that were home. Each day has been a blessing. I feel you move often in my tummy. You are an active little guy. I love each movement I feel. Heavenly Father sent angels of every kind at this time and has been sending them everyday. The ward has been so helpful. We are blessed to be a part of something so great. I don't know what I would have done without everyone and their loving service. We already love you so much, and hope all is well inside. We hope you are growing strong and we hope to be able to make it father down the road. Yesterday was 31 weeks. So the end goal is 38 weeks June 1. But if we have problems at 36 weeks then he won't be stopping it. He will just get you out. So here is to hoping for June 1!!!!
WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!
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